three in one.

You know my head is especially noisy today when I post THREE times on here. My head feels like a TV today... it feels like there are many channels playing at once up there. Some are more clearer and louder than others and some are still fuzzy and I'm trying to see what's beyond the fuzz. My head is flipping through the channels and I'm just trying to see what it all means or is trying to say.

Utah.

I really love Utah. It's such a pretty place with so much variety. We have the (tiny) city, the mountains, the lakes, the desert, the suburban areas, the rural areas. I've never hated Utah.. besides the lame rules of everything basically being closed on Sunday or closing early. But lately, I feel like I have outgrown Utah. I don't feel like I belong here anymore. Is this just normal for a 24 year old? Or do I really not belong here anymore? I picture myself living somewhere like Seattle or New York. I've always adored San Fransisco but I can't see myself living there. And since right now I eat things like Ramen and Mac & Cheese, living in those cities are both very unrealistic but I feel a pull towards those cities and I want to make it a reality.

I want to live in an apartment where I can walk downstairs, step out and I'll immediately  be apart of the people of the city. Or where I can walk to anywhere I need to be. I don't really have much here in Utah so I won't be leaving anything behind and I would love a fresh start.

So that's my new goal. Work hard and save up to move to either Seattle or New York.

Anywhere but here.

i wonder...

I wonder what it means when I have a dream that I see a two year old that looked like me as a two year old and she keeps drowning in a lake and I keep saving her?

Anyway, it kind of make me want to me a lifeguard. I think I have my next summer planned.

what's going on in my life part 3.

Update #1 - Bad hair days. Have you not had a bad hair day in a while? Well, don't worry, it's probably because I have been having them for everyone on the planet. Yes, I do know that there are larger issues in the world to be concerned about, but honestly, my hair is behaving in ways I didn't know hair could. Part of me is honestly impressed that my hair is capable of doing what it's doing.

Update #2 - I've been dreaming about ice cream lately. I'm confused why I was dreaming of ice cream considering I don't really like it and it makes me cough and cough and cough. And cough. According to the handy-dandy internet that I would surely die without, this is what it means to dream of ice cream:

To see or eat ice cream in your dream denotes good luck, pleasure, success in love and satisfaction with your life. You need to savor the moment and enjoy it.

Update #3 - I've been watching the Friend Zone on MTV. Basically, it is a show where two (male and female) people are BFF's and one has strong feelings for the other. They eventually share their deep feelings for them and pour their hearts out to them in hopes to take the relationship to the next level. Some say yes (wahoo!) some say no (eff that). If I poured my entire heart and soul to my BFF in hopes to be his girlfriend he said "no we are just friends, you are in the friend zone." I would retaliate by putting him in the dead zone. Ha. Not really, but who knows. 

Update #4 - Saw this picture of this girl and it made me really miss my bangs. I came this close to cutting them. But instead I just put the scissors down and ran away...

when you have nothing left to burn, you have to set yourself on fire.

Firstly, I want to share a quick dream I had today when I was taking my enchanting Sunday nap....

I had a dream I had an app on my phone that could melt snow and ice on the road!

Nothing excites me more than seeing snowflakes falling from the sky. With that being said, nothing gives me more anxiety and stress than driving on an icy road with snow falling from the sky, so you can understand why this app would be useful to me. If I ever figure out the technology and skills to make this app, I will create it and I will make it FREE. You are welcome.

I drove to Boise, Idaho this weekend to watch the Utah State bowl game. We left on Friday afternoon and made it home safely around 1AM on Sunday. I was stuck in the backseat in the middle on the way there and back.

Things I learned being stuck in the backseat in the middle:

1. There is absolutely no place to move your legs to.
2. There is absolutely no place to rest your head when you want to doze off.
3. There is absolutely no place to rest your arms when you get bored of them sitting at your sides.
4. There is absolutely no room to adjust even a little.
5. There is absolutely no worse place to be than stuck in the backseat in the middle.

I don't have work tomorrow so you can imagine my happiness right now. Alas, I have ten finger nails that need desperate attention that I must go trim and paint.

Hope your weekend wasn't spent in the backseat in the middle, if it wasn't, your weekend was already better than mine.

just a girl in a hat.

That is a picture of me wearing a hat because I refused to do my hair today.

My day started at six AM. 

I'm okay with that, I surprisingly enjoy early morning time.

In a perfect world where I didn't have to work and I could somehow survive with zero income, I would wake up early everyday. Early as in before the sun rises. I would go for walks around the Avenues. I would get ambitious and make pancakes and french toast. I would start doing yoga just so I can tell people I wake up early and do yoga. And yoga is just cool anyway. I would make a nest on the couch and read the newspaper and/or books. If I had a dog, I would take the dog on a walk.
I would this all before the sun rose!
 I just don't like waking up early the days I have work because It's like waking up early just to go to a place you don't really want to be at. 

dreams.

For the last two nights I've had dreams that I was either meeting Jim Morrison or in the same room as Jim Morrison.

That only means one thing....

That if we were alive at the same time we would probably be married and driving across the United States in a VW Bus and he would tell me how much he loves me every day.

I have no idea what else those dreams could mean.

i wore mismathced colored socks today.

On purpose. Just cause I didn't want to swim through our messy bedroom floor to find the correct pair.

Today has probably been my weirdest day. I don't know if it's because my the wheels in my head have been turning at 38+mph causing me to feel mentally fatigued, or because I wore two different colors of socks, that I'm feeling mentally fatigued... erm, I'm aware I already said that. 

I took some Excedrin on an empty belly and fell asleep. I had some pretty fierce dreams. I don't want to share them with you because to be honest, I don't think anyone really cares about anyone elses dreams unless they are in them... or if somebody is naked. No matter how well I explain my dreams, even through a game of sherades with props, people will tell me to relax, get a night light, and quit blocking the TV.

This has been a rough week to say the least and only two things made it better today:
1. I didn't hit ONE red light on the way home.
2. I saw a big yellow lab wearing a sweater vest.

Well Reader, I hope your day was better than mine. As long as you have matching socks, your day is already a greater success.

Kaleena: 0 Everything else: 1

bad boys, bad boys.

I'm sick today.

I had an alarming dream last night. In this dream, one of those ugly, flying ants was in our bedroom and it was crawling on me, it scared me so bad that it woke me up; only for me to discover that I would be spending this Sunday sick, on the couch. Typically, I would be on the couch anyway, but this time I have an excuse. Wanna know what I absolutely disdain? You can witness the most awful, scary, terrible, worst dream of your life or in the history of ever and when you are sharing it with someone else, they will never know what it was like. And they will judge you. And stare at you. And call you a baby and ask if you need a nightlight.

"A 'scary' dream about a flying ant woke you up?....."

"You just had to be there, alright!!! Can you pass me more tissues?"

The headache that is haunting me right now, makes me want to slice that part of my brain out and drop-kick it into the road where it will be ran over by the next four passing cars. 

Today's forecast: being beached on the couch while watching the Cops marathon. Three episodes down already, about twenty left to go.