hey hey heeyyyy.

Do you every annoy the absolute crap out of yourself? There are some days when I am so crazy and hyper and full of energy and I'm all by myself (this usually happens in the car or when I'm home alone) and I start to annoy myself. I've been doing that a lot this week.

I was driving home from work on Monday... I was full of energy, crazy-hyper and stuck in traffic. All are ingredients to me about to annoy myself. I started singing along to the music in weird voices and changing the lyrics to what I was seeing around me. 30 minutes later, I wanted to kick myself out of the car and not talk to myself for a week... because that's what I would usually do if I was riding with someone who was annoying me.

Typing all this out, I realize how crazy I sound. Oh well.

According to the countdown on my homepage of my cell phone... there are just 5 little ol' days til my 23rd birthday. So. Here is a list of things I want. Some things are realistic, some things are definitely not.

1. A bunny.
2. Drop Dead Fred on DVD.
3. A crab/seafood dinner.
4. A certificate stating that I can eat at Buffalo Wild Wings anytime I want for free.
5. Money.
6. That Shaun of the Dead tshirt I saw in a catalog a few months ago.
7. A trip to Graceland.
8. A trip to New York.
9. A puppy/dog.
10. Peonies.
11. A fedora hat.
12. The full series of Growing Pains on DVD. I was obsessed with that show. I cried on the series finale. Ugh. Emotional times
13. A pet duck.
14. A vespa.
15. A bike... a beach cruiser bike.
16. Tickets to the Neil Diamond concert. He's coming here in July! (i think it's July, it might be August).


I think that's it. It always seems like I want a lot but when I type it out, nothing comes to mind.

i can't believe i am almost 23...

Just a few things...

1. I wish it was Wednesday. Because if it was Wednesday, I would be getting paid. And I really really really really (adding a fifth really) REALLY need to get paid.

2. I am setting a mini goal for myself this week. It is: to work at least 9 hours a day. I know that sounds lame and silly and there are much bigger goals I could be setting... but I need some extra dough (see thing #1 above) and work has been so slow that I've been only getting 6-7 hours. So this week I will make myself stay for 8 or 9 hours.

3. My birthday is next Monday. CELEBRATE good times, COME ON!

4. I woke up with probably the worst... really, the WORST migraine I've yet to have in this life. But after suffering, I tried putting some ice on my neck and it worked really well. So the next time you have a headache or migraine that will make you want to die, try putting some ice on  your neck and it will help.

5. One of my biggest annoyances in life is when people have the TV up loud. Ugh. I hate it.

6. I have been trying to wear my hair with the middle part and I liked it at first but with each passing day, I'm thinking no. It's gotta go back to the side part.

7. I love finding home made natural remedies for things. Like, if you want to fade acne scars? You just rub lemon juice on them. Or if you want to make your skin look healthy and glowy, just rub chamomile tea on it. Yay!

a note from the universe.

Have you heard of the thing where you get notes from the universe? Well if not... here is what you do.

1. Open the internet machine.
2. Type in: www.tut.com
3. Then click on 'FREE SIGN UP'
4. Then fill out all the needed info and stuff.

Basically what it is, is you get an email sent to you every day of something that is inspirational or useful. I'm not talking like "BE YOURSELF, NO ONE ELSE WILL!" Not that crap. When you sing up they ask you 2 personal questions/goals and depending on those answers, that will determine what kind of inspiration they will send you. It's pretty neat.

So today, this is the one that was sent to me: (if I was more tech savvy I would take a screen shot, but that just ain't gonna happen)

I think you already feel it, Kaleena, but a really HUGE wave of LOVE is coming your way.

Once in a lifetime HUGE.

Hang ten,

    The Universe.

My first response was:

 But then I was like:

truth.

Today I had a tough time getting out of bed. By the time my alarm went off I knew I was not ready to take on the day. I set the sound of my alarm to a rooster... probably the worst decision I've made this week. Waking up to an alarm is alerady the worst... but waking up to a fake URR-URURRRR is even worse. Sorry my rooster impression is so terrible. I felt waaayyyy too lazy to even think about the task of dressing myself. After laying there for ten minutes, I decided I had to get up and not be so lazy and tired. It is now 3:00pm and I'm still wishing I was home in bed. It's just one of those days where nothing comes close to the appeal of a nice, soft, comfy bed.

Now here are some really great and true quotes... all by Jonathan Safran Foer.

“The only thing more painful than being an active forgetter is to be an inert rememberer.”

"I am doing something I hate for you. This is what it means to be in love.” 

“The only way to overcome sadness is to consume it. ” 

“I was of the opinion that the past is past, and like all that is not now it should remain buried along the side of our memories.” 

Can we please talk about how brillian Jonathan Safran Foer is? Ugh. Probably my #2 favorite autor. Chuck Palahniuk is obviously my #1. Forever. Also, it took me forever to remember how to spell his last name correctly without looking it up.

So, since I'm entirely obsessed with the thought of my bed today.. I am going to go home, get in my bed and start reading Everything is Illuminated. Which is by Jonathan Safran Foer. Woo.
 

i hate when i confuse myself.

Hi.

I went on a date tonight. It was really fun! I have already been out with him like 4 times... I mentioned him on here before. Anyway, it was fun. We went to City Creek Mall (an outdoor-ish mall) and people watched and guessed people's names. We are pro at people watching and he thinks I am gifted when it comes to guessing names. I don't want to brag but I am pretty great at guessing names.

I feel good about it. There is still a lot I need to think about... not just about me and him but mostly what I even want. I've lived life with and without a boyfriend... they both have their ups and I think for the time being I am really okay with the life without a boyfriend. When you are in a relationship for so long... you kind of lose your "own" identity because you are so used to being as one with your spouse; doing EVERYTHING together. I want to get to know myself again because sometimes I even surprise myself with the things I like or no longer like. And sometimes when I sit down and have a good think about the things I do and do not want (not just in a person but in life) things get confusing and I end up not really knowing what I want. Ugh. It's kind of hard to know what you want from someone else when you don't really know what you want in life. Does that make sense? Probably not. But welcome to my head.

ba ba ba bowling!

Last night was a fun filled night of bowling at the Bonwood Bowling Ally extravaganza!! Bonwood is the best for a lot of reasons... but the #1 reason is because you can bowl THREE games (shoes included, oh yes) for only seven bucks. I mean, for bowling you just can't get cheaper than that. Some would call it a steal.

My first game I took 3rd with the score of 137, second game I got 131 (tied at 2nd) and the third game... well let's just say I wasn't really trying and I only bowled a 92.

When we bowl, it's always my favorite thing to look at the other monitors of the fellow bowlers to see what names they chose. Sometimes it's just their real name but other times you'll see something like BUBBA, The Machine, Odessy, TANK, Playa420, etc. My name is usually Buckmister or Special K.

One day when I'm an old lady i'll have a bowling league with all my old lady friends and it will be a hoot and a half. Matching shirts and all. Looking forward to it.

 photo by: me

it's an intsagram photo actually.

username: kaleenajaneface



15 days.

Guess what? There are just 15 days until I turn 23!  Can you believe it? I can. And I am actually excited for my birthday this year... considering what awful and truly upsetting event happened two days after my birthday last year.

This is what I want for my birthday this year....

And I also want pretty much everything off of this website:  http://thisiswhyimbroke.com/

Anyway... I have been really happy lately. I have been making a lot of progress in certain parts of my life that I thought would forever be unchangeable. It's amazing how much control you do have over your own happiness.